I need to start fembrained-poonermaxxing again

I used to be so poonbrained in middle school, before I started repping. I had dyed my hair blue, was friends with Homestuck fangirls, my favorite animated show on at the time was Steven Universe--besides Gravity Falls, of course, whom Dipper is one of the most popular ftm headcanons in any animated show and of course I self-inserted as him too, I watched Heathers: The Musical animatics on YouTube, and the most poonbrained thing of all: I discovered my love for My Chemical Romance through an Invader Zim AMV.

I've been trying to recapture this personality again because I think, deep down, it's who I really am. I've been listening to not just MCR but also Tally Hall and Glass Beach and their music is phenomenal. Gotta listen to Lemon Demon too. I really wanna read the manga Banana Fish soon so I can get deeper into the world of BL. I'm need to rewatch Steven Universe at some point as well. This is the meta for me.

Any other suggestions from the trans men here? Maybe how you used to be pre-transition, or observations you've seen of other trans men.