Nervous venting

I’m ready to work but I’m also not ready to work? I just got onto EIA and my budget I get is $880/month, my rent is basically all of that. So I need a job, I need to work to be able to live but I’m scared because what if I don’t like the job and I’m stuck there? Idk if EIA would take me back if I quit.

I’m applying for childcare jobs since that’s where I have most experience. I don’t really want to work with school age since I didn’t like it as a last job. I was hoping I could wait out until summer and work under the table with my landscaping but I don’t think i’ll survive until then.

This is adding to the stress of tariffs coming. If I can’t afford it now, how will I afford it when it happens? I’m high functioning so there’s no “help” for me as an adult 😭😭😫😫