No one talks about the pain of seeing your parents aging.

I hate it. It breaks me and makes me not even want to live beyond this. They’re not even that old, both around 60 and relatively okay shape for their age. Both still working mobile etc. But I can see it in their face. Their skin. They’re very happy with their life and each other., I’m so scared of the pain of when they get truly sick for the first time. How do you cope. How can I enjoy my youth when all I can think about is how every mile stone is taking me one step closer to a day without them. I’m scared for the pain of loosing them. I don’t think i can handle it. How do i go live my life and chase my dreams and explore new cities when it means being away from them.