Does anyone dream about their childhood or first love?

I just had a dream about this…. And ended toxic, it was my first real bad relationship, first real serious relationship, it was a toxic relationship. I left that relationship in total disgust. He cheated on me with my best friend and then she over dosed on drugs…..

But it was like my mind went straight to when we first met. We were both absolutely infatuated with one another. We were so much alike. Shared interests and both just exploring late teens and early 20s together. We were all over one another. I’m convinced there would never be another love like that. I was so happy in all aspects. But I really let my self go. We were both from broken homes but he had it worse. My depression really kicked in and he was the only person that mattered. We planned kids and nurtured each others inner child before even knowing what that meant.

As time went on, I noticed I wasn’t the only person in his life and I just went insane but couldn’t let go of the “idea” that we had planned an entire life together. I fought thru it even after my best friend slept with him. I finally left that “mango” when I realized he didn’t want to get better and he wasn’t interested in investing in his future. I had no idea what self love was …. Clearly. But I knew that it was wrong, self deprecating and one day he tried to kill me before going to work…. I fought him off. Called the cops. My family knew. 7 years down the line I had been through 2 failed relationships and we re linked. He lived with some one and she had completely required him to change in order to fit her standards. She made him stop everything he did before. He was living off of her so that didn’t leave him much room for much. He had explained he went to prison and also battled lymphatic cancer. I had my own apartment and a bartending gig, my own crowd and “friends” …I thought I was doing great and I was. He just filled this place in me that was very immature because I knew he couldn’t do anything for me.

I gave up on that and we both agreed it just wasn’t what it was.

I moved on with my life. Fell in love with two different people (at different times). I’m Now happily married but I can see it’s a more healthier marriage and not at all like that one. I have no feelings for this old one. But my mind just went waaaaay back to that time with some changes and the feelings all came back lol. I woke up and just shook it off. Hugged my husband and so happy I met my husband. lol.

Anyone ever go thru that?