Regret.

I regret meeting her so much. I regret ignoring the glaring red flags in the beginning. I should have known better.

2.5 months of NC later she randomly mails me a package with one of my things. The day after she posts three videos to YouTube designed to provoke me. Emotionally, I feel like I'm all the way back where I started. I can't handle these games, and I can't stop obsessively ruminating. She won.

I wouldn't wish this psychological torture on anyone.