Did the abuse ever drive you to harm yourself?

Trigger Warning

I have never truly tried to kill or hurt myself-- but the abuse was soooo awful and incessant-- the trauma bond so strong that I felt hopeless. I felt like I was never going to be enough for him, or ANYONE, even my son. I locked myself in the bathroom and started cutting my wrists. Not so bad that I was actually going to kill myself, but in that moment I truly wanted to die, but it's like my body wouldn't quite let me hurt myself to a serious point, though I kept wishing for an easier way out. I have never felt so low in my life. My nex acted sympathetic at first but quickly used it against me, of course.

Has anyone been through something like this?