My date last night didn’t feel all that consensual but I feel like it’s my fault

I met up with a guy from bumble yesterday at his place. He was bigger than his pictures led on and that alone didn’t bother me at the time, now it kinda does. I myself am a bigger girl, so the prospect of someone being able to overpower me generally isn’t a huge concern of mine. So it wasn’t a worry I had when I first saw him.

It started out normal and we were cuddling while watching tv. We kissed a few times and then he started getting a little more forceful. He pushed me down on the couch and put his hand around my throat. I’m all for rough foreplay but I had only just met him. When he let go I said that was a bit too much and he chilled out for a while and we went back to cuddling.

Later he leaned over and stared kissing my neck which was fine until he bit me really hard and I said that my neck is sensitive and I’d prefer if he didn’t bite it. He said sorry. After a bit more kissing he put his hand down my shirt and pinched my nipple aggressively. I told him that he didn’t need to do that because they are sensitive too and he said “wow, you’re so delicate”. And then he did it again. I was a little scared at that point but I figured I might be overthinking it because I’ve been sexually assaulted in the past. He made a lot of comments about how small I was compared to him and laughed when I said I’m not all that small.

He chilled out for a while and then we went to his room where after I took my shirt off I realized I wasn’t ready for anything more and said so. I said “I’m sorry but I can’t do this tonight”…. He said it’s fine but then he kept going. I recoiled a bunch of times and he kept saying it’s okay but he didn’t stop. At a certain point I gave up and we had sex…

I feel sick and I don’t know if I should. I could have left but I didn’t. I was scared but it’s my fault for going to his house in the first place.