I'm doomed idk why I like sad girls.

I'm just gunna keep getting hurt over and over again. I can't help it I like sad girls with trauma (not in a demeaning way, like genuinely.) I don't know what it is about them. Maybe it's how happy I make them for the first few months and how obsessive they get with me. I try to fix them but these types of girls never really open up and it makes the relationship fall apart because once they're unhappy they'll leave and you can't change their minds because you were put on a pedestal and were "perfect". I'm just now realizing this because this has been a consistent pattern in my dating experience. Idk I can't help it. I hate it I guess love is like a drug right?

Edit: I may have over exaggerated a few things i.e the pedestal thing, it's just I've heard people tell me that. To me it makes sense. I'm not actively going to these girls thinking "hey this girl is gunna worship me if I'm nice" no. As a few have mentioned I do have insecurities I also get attached and fear of losing them. I love the attention not because I wanna be all up in my head. I love it because I feel wanted as where in my childhood I never have.