i’m jealous of women with loving husbands

please respect the flair i know you all care and want people to leave but i just can’t. i don’t feel like giving an explanation but i have a lot of medical conditions and i kinda rely on him to take care of me. if you want more info just ask i don’t wanna write a whole paragraph about it here

anyways, i see a lot of posts in r//benignexistence about women and their husbands who do small things that show they love them and it makes me so depressed. i want to be loved like that. i’m so jealous of people who have others who love them. i just don’t understand why he feels the need to hurt me.

i love him more than anything. i feel so alone. i never told him about my last miscarriage because i knew he wouldn’t comfort me anyways. sometimes i wish i could join my baby in heaven. i miss them.