psychologists conspired?
So, was trying to get a re evaluation on my adhd for disabilities.....
told them I hillucinated aspects of flies (buzzing... things darting in my vision, etc) during a specific time a year and that I believe it was a stress trauma thing my mind was going through.
Told them I have adhd, and had been psych flagged by the military for stress.
Also that I may have acute insomnia, OCD, and manic depressent symptoms.
They asked me several times if I experienced heightened periods of sexual desire and if I heard voices that told me to do things
I knew right off the bat letting them even think I had some kind of mental psychosis would likely lead to a loss of personal agency and I'm not going to hand that to anyone.
But so I went out to an appointment.... and shit got fucking weird.
while waiting in the lobby, I started pacing... then, randomly, started hearing random buzzing noises.... LIKE FLIES! Managed to track the noises down to a specific lightbulb.
THEN I STARTED SEEING SMALL BLACK OBJECT BUZZ ABOUT MY VISION.
wasn't at all like what I normally go through, what I go through is in the peripheral... where the mind guesses what its seeing and fabricates things to fill in the blind spots (literally).
This was all around my vision. Made no sense.
And low and behold... there was ONE person in the lobby with me, who did NOTHING to react to what was 'a sudden appearance of flying things'
Like, ok, what in the fuck game is this!?!
I decided to try seeing if there was something that would be able to produce these weird black specs... didn't see anything that was clearly the source but I did see a weird black camera thing just around the corner.... and no sooner did I find that did the black specs stop showing up.
Eventually I got called in for my appointment and it went about the same as the phone screen.... shit only got weird near the end.... No idea why but suddenly I got this switch in vibe like it was suddenly getting intense or awkward. And as we wrapped up, the evaluator then raises their voice and loudly declares (in my direction) "ok, Opening the door now" like a sort of "we are leaving now" declaration. I couldn't quite tell if it was to me or not.... which means it probably wasn't.
Anyone have similar experiences? This shit was fucking bonkers. I can be paranoid, I'm ex military ffs, but NONE of this matched what I normally go through.... this shit was cranked up like crazy.