Is less a small win?

I’ve been kinda getting down on myself because I planned on a dry January. But instead it’s been a 50% dry January with 8 dry days and 7 not and drinking less on the days I do drink.

Can someone tell me this is something I can be proud of? It’s not my goal, yet. But it’s better.

Also, a side note that encourages me. I was thinking the other day that when I drink. Everything seems blah. Like the world is in black and white and when I’m sober, it’s in color. Everything is so much more meaningful and beautiful as cheesy as it sounds. I have my kids the next 4 nights and no alcohol in the house. So at least I can say with certainty that IWNDWYT.

Some encouragement would be nice as I have been beating myself up for not doing better. You are all an inspiration.