“Being bad” while AF?

Hello, long time lurker first time posting a topic of my own.

I’m considering trying to do this thing long term. A question for you all, do you miss the feeling of “being bad.” I don’t know, I feel like it’s been my only rebellion? Being selfish a bit being out of control or scared or shocking people was always part of it for me? I know a lot of people get into running or something extreme like that but running doesn’t feel dangerous? Actually people say “good for you.”

Lots of sobers in the capsaicin chasing crowd which I do like… but does anyone want to share something they do for this urge? I’m feeling like it’s being mean/ getting into fights or tattoos for some reason and I don’t necessarily want more of any of that in my life actually… curious if this is a common feeling.

I know part of it is I need to learn to enjoy peace and I am trying. Still wondering if someone here has an outlet they do sometimes that won’t lead to everything alcohol leads too?

Thanks you are all amazing and I talk about this sub like I have lots of friends in the community bc it really feels that way!