I'm sick of always being the person who tries.

Im 16, from the uk :)

I've been getting frustrated and kinda sad recently. I know life doesn't owe me anything etc. But honestly it feels like I'm the only person who puts effort into friendships and cares. The majority of my friends, if I stopped texting them they would just never text me or care. I only have a few friends going into 2025 as I lost my friendship group including my best friend of 4 years last year on really bad terms. I only have about 3 friends now.

One of my 3 friends who isn't in my sixth form leaves me on delivered for days. Yesterday we were meant to go out, she cancelled on me half an hour before I left. She then left me on delivered and i wasnt sure if we were going out anymore or not.

My other two friends in my new group are lovely but I still never feel them putting effort into the friendship. They have been best friends with eachother for years so it's understandable but sometimes it hurts.

I just wish I could have someone who actually WANTED to make an effort with me. The only time someone did, she she turned out to be stalking my family and friends and was a toxic toxic person.

I'm a people pleaser, I know that, but it's just because I adore my friends so much, I even love people who hate me or have bullied me. I feel that deep down everyones just human, so i will give them endless chances or i cant find it in myself to dislike them.

I'm exhausted. I want to be wanted for once.