What kept you off steroids?

Everyday we're bombasted with images of perfect bodies. I understand that we should see them as inspiration, not competition, but you know, on some days when we're feeling down or some sad stuffs happen we came across some 18 years old with perfect bodies when we're 30 looking less than, then gains are now slow you barely got any,that got us insecure sometimes.

I've been only training for 1 year 5 months, barely enough to reach my genetic potential, I still got a long way to go and I know that. But on some days I feel shitty about myself, I would contemplate using them and then throw that though away. Just afraid that one day that insecure thought would win